Yesterday everything went wrong. The morning was ok, went to Fiona's a bit late then we had to go to Braehead where we were meant to meet Thomas but he couldn't make it. So we went shopping ourselves it was really fun, we also drew on the bus windows when they steamed up.
But later that night something happened. I don't know what happened but the next thing everyone was saying things about Amer, I can't remember much my head was a mess. I remember unblocking Thomas N cause I needed someone to rant to but in the end Thomas teamed up with Lauren and they both went against me. Even Abu wasn't helpful since he lied to me to try and get me to break up with Amer by saying that he loved me. Which made me upset cause he is my best friend, but he lied to me and i'm mad at him for that. I don't like being lied to, I know I can't say anything about lying the amount I've told but mine are different and I can't say how on here they jut are though.
This morning I fought with Thomas and he sent part of the conversation to Lauren who sent it to Amer and because of that I had to break up with Amer and it hurt cause I love him I really. Thomas also sent me an email
"Dear Amy,
I love you so much, more that you can ever belive possible and I know I have done stupid things in the past like cheating im a changed guy now and all I want to is to see you happy even if that means you going back out with that other guy. Just make sure your safe.
I know I do a lot of shit that makes you hate me and im sorry about cheating on you with laurie but I wasn’t well then and I have changed and I am well now. I just want to show you how much I love you. If you want me to I will book a caravan for a few weeks in saltcoats as theres a holiday park there and I have been there before. I want to take you out for a long romantic stroll down a beach and kiss you on the beach and never let you go.
I know your prob never going to forgive me for what I did but I pleed you to try and that I would never cheat again and let me earn your trust again. I know deep down you still love me and I want to try to get that to show so we can be together again but stronger this time and never let anything between us."
To be truthful I don't know what to say back. I know I shouidn't say this and I know I'll regret it but chances are deep down I still love Thomas. Nothing can happen between us though, it's to late.
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